Challenge, Travel, Friendship
Many people who know me think of me as quiet and shy, an introvert, etc, etc. This however, isn’t exactly the case. My mind is constantly going 100 miles per hour, racing here and there, mostly thinking about nothing in particular, yet constantly thinking about something. I’m the kind of person who prefers to listen to a conversation instead of participate in one, mostly because my mouth can rarely keep up with my brain.
That all being said, I’m working on conquering my fears. The key (or so they say) to conquering your fears is to acknowledge said fears, understand them, and then be able to tune them out, shut off your brain so to speak and then just jump, or vault, or whatever it is you were trying to do.
You might be able to see my problem.
I’ve struggled with this problem since I began my training over 3 years ago, although it hasn’t become a serious problem until now. I seem to lack the ability to tune out the fear, shut down my racing thoughts and focus completely on the scary movement in front of me.
So this is what I’m working on, tuning out the fears an insecurities and shutting down my thoughts as much as I can. Sometimes, this means starting back at the basics. Start the movement from scratch, from the foundation. Practice until you can’t get it wrong.
My progress is frustratingly slow, but with determination (and some luck) I’ll get there eventually, no doubt with some road bumps along the way.
My goals are numerous and many are for the long term. I’ll only list a few to spare you from boredom.
First and foremost my goal is to graduate college. Education is something that is immensely important to me and I tend to soak up knowledge like a sponge. It’s still going to be at least three years before I meet my goal, but I can see a clear destination and I know exactly how to get there.
My next goal is something that’s a little more short term: Train. Train. Train. Since I have finished with college until August that leaves me a little more free time to train, something that I tend to neglect when I’m waist deep in papers and final exams. I want to get a more regular training schedule and stick to it, which will hopefully help me progress at a more consistent rate.
My final goal is to one day spread parkour and it’s message. Specifically by getting more females involved. For some girls it can be scary going to a testosterone filled class for her first time and see all these buff athletic guys jump crazy distances or run up walls. (Sorry guys, but it’s true). I’ve already attempted to begin to achieve this goal by starting the LVPK Women’s Group. (LVPK stands for Lehigh Valley Parkour if you didn’t know) We meet once a month to train and hangout. We want to create a supportive environment where women can come and try parkour for the first time and they don’t have to feel intimidated and get turned away.
There are many more goals than these, but for now these three are the ones that are the most important to me.