What are you working on now?

Many people who know me think of me as quiet and shy, an introvert, etc, etc. This however, isn’t exactly the case. My mind is constantly going 100 miles per hour, racing here and there, mostly thinking about nothing in particular, yet constantly thinking about something. I’m the kind of person who prefers to listen to a conversation instead of participate in one, mostly because my mouth can rarely keep up with my brain.

That all being said, I’m working on conquering my fears. The key (or so they say) to conquering your fears is to acknowledge said fears, understand them, and then be able to tune them out, shut off your brain so to speak and then just jump, or vault, or whatever it is you were trying to do.

You might be able to see my problem.

I’ve struggled with this problem since I began my training over 3 years ago, although it hasn’t become a serious problem until now. I seem to lack the ability to tune out the fear, shut down my racing thoughts and focus completely on the scary movement in front of me.

So this is what I’m working on, tuning out the fears an insecurities and shutting down my thoughts as much as I can. Sometimes, this means starting back at the basics. Start the movement from scratch, from the foundation. Practice until you can’t get it wrong.

My progress is frustratingly slow, but with determination (and some luck) I’ll get there eventually, no doubt with some road bumps along the way.